Vulnerable

It's incredibly surreal; the phase of life i'm in right now. Often seeming that the days that come by are only here to go. And that we're striving alot more than the usual, just to get through the times. Everyday is filled with question and doubt, not knowing what lies ahead of us, a lifetime of uncertainty and confusion. We wonder what's really going on for real with everything around us, and if it's just a big.. game.

I'll say, plenty of tough decisions ahead. And a heaping load of reality there will be to face soon, very soon. I question myself on what is real and what isn't, what i should care about and what i shouldn't. You'd think, sometimes it's just better off when you're not trusting anything, and believing almost nothing. Shutting down just one emotion, possibly means shutting down the whole lot, or at least numbing out the most of the latter.

Today we live in a society, reinforced by peer pressure. How much we should and shouldn't care about things, what is deemed reasonable to prioritize and what isn't. The things we stand for are affected by the people we stand with, and neither of them should come between each other. If you think about it, we're really just alone. Because while you're busy trying to devote your time to others, they're just paying theirs forward, leading into an infinite loophole of disarray. Most of us just aren't in the conscious state to see or understand that, unless, we're really not alone.

The magic of learning to trust is just as beautiful, as it is hard to trust someone. But trusting someone, with all our heart, would mean being open, fragile, and vulnerable. You're pretty much marked with a huge crosshair over your chest. But that's what being vulnerable is all about, because as much as you're open to the bad stuff, you're just as vulnerable to the good stuff.

So maybe being vulnerable isn't that bad after all.